Dear Chocolate,

It’s been 15 day’s since we last saw each other face to face. 15 days since I last touched you, smelt you, tasted you. I know I was a possesive and jealous person in the past, and I thought had gotten over those issues, but if the last two weeks have taught me anything – it’s that I haven’t learnt a dam thing about how to control my jealousy.

It’s been torture seeing you with other people; having to watch family, friends and work colleauges all enjoy you the way I can’t enjoy you, because I was foolish enough to give you up. Every year when Lent came around I would toy with the idea of giving you up, but I just couldn’t do it Chocolate. I loved you too much. But this year, well, this year was different; what with a break-up, a disseration, exams, then a stressful job followed by un-employment, I indulged in you far too much in the past 12 months.

So I made a decision. I chose to give you up for Lent . . .

I didn’t know what I was thinking, I thought maybe we needed the break. And whilst I have lost a few pounds, and my skin feels and looks better, I have to admit – I’m starting to regret the decision.

Do you want to know the worst thing about the consequences of my decision Chocolate? Seeing you with strangers. Strangers who don’t even appreciate you for what you are. It kills me. Watching them unwrap you, peeling off your layers, smuthering their lips around you and biting you so carelessly, not even caring about the crumbs that they simply waste and just let fall to floor. I care about your crumbs chocolate. I adore your crumbs. I hold my hand out for crumbs. And whilst I have found some comfort in my good friend Cake, and my new friend Strawberry Muller Rice . . . their just not you Chocolate. Not even close. I miss you. I just hope you miss me.

Thinking of you Always

Tink x

Related posts:

1. The Chocolate Memoirs: Lent – Day 24
2. The Chocolate Memoirs – Chober
3. The Chocolate Memoirs – Chocanonymous

Tags: Cake, Chocolate, Muller Rice

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